So lately I have been feelin a bit down.. but trying to just stay positive. I think for the first time in a while I am actually a bit bored with my life. I know I should actually be grateful that I finally have some peace. So that's what I need to keep telling myself.
I first started this blog a year ago, and I definitely was in a dark place then. As weird as it sounds I must give Rudy a big chunk of my growing out of that dark place, as well as Aj of course. Lately I have been looking back at my life and it really is sad to say but almost everyone I have known has hurt me or let me down in some way. I guess that's what has gotten me down a lot lately, realizing that. I know no one is perfect, and everyone will let you down once in awhile, but it seems like I have got royally screwed many times. haha.

My family is there for me too, but it has been very difficult with all of the sad events that have happened in the past few years to our family. My own older sister refuses to talk to ANYONE in our family. It has been very hard on me, since we were the closest in age and she was the one I was closest with. I'm trying to stay positive and believe that good things will be coming to our family, but it has been very hard.
Even though I have thought all this I know that my little Rudy will always be there for me and put a smile on my face. I have been reading Marley and Me right now, it is the best book for me right now! If you have an appreciation for dogs I suggest you read it. It truly shows the comfort and love a dog can give to any family. It just reminds me of Rudy and lucky I am to have him. I know there was a reason for me to have him. :)